I had completely forgotten about ear wax! Or rather – I must have suppressed the memories of being almost ‘deaf’ on one ear for many month before I forced myself to go to the doctor, who worked hard with an ‘ear flush apparatus’ to rinse out the ‘fossilized’ lumps of earwax, that kept coming out, while I was watching in disgust and disbelief that my ear could have held all that – for so long!

Since I have been so ‘focused’ on ears and hearing I have also been thinking about Tinnitus – “the perception of sound within the human ear in the absence of corresponding external sound” (I just looked it up on Wikipedia to find a ‘clinical’ description).

I have met/know several people who suffer from that, both musicians and loud music fans and also people who ‘just happen to’ have a constant ringing or buzzing or other ‘sounds’ in the ears. It can be slight or hellish, but something people mostly ‘have to live with’…….

“Tinnitus is common. About one in five people between 55 and 65 years old report tinnitus symptoms on a general health questionnaire and 11.8% on more detailed tinnitus-specific questionnaires”. That’s a lot of people! I wonder if they have done the same as I did – just in the form of a ‘sound barrier’ as ‘protection’ from things that got/are to unbearable to listen to? They could probably also benefit from finding what is actually causing these annoying symptoms (the list of suggested causes and treatments is ‘endless’) – and clear them instead of trying to ‘adapt’ to something so unacceptable! Neither of us should ever have to do that!

I would keep scratching my left (or right) ear (i.e. poke it with a Q-tip) to get rid of earwax, only to end up with middle ear infection AND the earwax would double. Had to resist the temptation of NOT touching my ear (although I’d still do it). Then when that ear was recovering and some earwax builds up, I get rid of it again with a Q-tip occasionally. If I overdo it, I inflame my ears again. And the cycle goes on…

Sometimes I’ve had my mom clean my ears for me, only for the situation to worsen afterwards…

I had somehow convinced myself that I was ‘the only one’ with these annoying problems – which of course isn’t true. I have just been so used to ‘being alone’ around it, that I hadn’t even searched the internet for example. I did that after writing this post, and found out that there are actually a lot ‘out there’ in the same situation. Also quite a few more or less desperate parents to ‘ear children’, who keep getting sick, no matter what they try to stop it.

I had another round of ‘ear stuff’ a couple of month after writing about it here. And some other well known variations of ‘ear blocks’ that I had forgotten about while writing.
The combination of the pressure in my ears from flying and lots of bathing during a vacation made my ear block again, and I also got pains. It wasn’t nearly as bad this time, but it lasted a bit longer.
Once again I was having a ‘conflict’ and things I didn’t want to hear/put up with – and later once more a ‘resolution’, which caused my ear to stop hurting and giving me my normal hearing back immediately. I heard/felt the ‘loud’ click/opening when it happened. Right after the ‘conflict break through.
It’s actually quite amazing to experience it so clearly – the connection between inner and outer things!

On a day to day basis I am very delighted now over ‘little things’ (which grow very ‘big’ over the years) like being able to put vinegar in my salad dressing and eat sugar again – without having any ‘ear symptoms’ flaring up immediately or fear that they will. I have absolutely no problems with any of the things I had to either be very careful about or be ready to ‘handle the consequences of’ now.

It’s because I’m working with/clearing what I’m finding are the actual causes of these problems now! It’s so very different from the ongoing fight with ‘symptoms’ only! I can highly recommend that!