Being impelled or compelled to automatically (with out being conscious of doing this) step off the side walk into dangerous traffic, almost being run over and nearly causing an accident.

Nearly getting run over, causing a car accident.

During my first weeks of working with WholeSoulWork and Clive I found myself walking out into a busy street without looking and was very close to being hit by cars.

This incident reminded me that I did something similar just a few weeks previously. I remember I stopped by the red ‘Don’t Walk’ sign and waited for the sign to turn green but at some point my body just walks straight out into the street so that a car had to break hard to not run me over. I then got confused and ashamed at this situation. I did not think much about it, I just blamed myself and was ashamed of how strange I seem to behave sometimes.

Impulsively crossing the road without looking

This time I was just walking down the street and all of a sudden I get the idea or impulse to cross the street and without THINKING about it I immediately step off the pavement to have a car breaking hard and swerving to avoid running me over. So, this time with more understanding of the possibilities of things interfering with us I got more suspicious and remembering different examples by other clients I had read here so I decided to write to Clive to see what he thought about it . . . . .

It turns out that he had experienced the same; that he too had times when he had to be very careful and stop himself from automatically crossing the road without looking.

He told me that in my case I had an entity that was intent on making me have an accident and that I could try and deal with it myself. I found doing this hard, I could feel it’s resistance but eventually I felt I had got it cleared but it turned out that it had fooled me and Clive took me through getting rid of it in the next phone session.

Since doing this clearing I have not had this problem since (over a year ago now).

Sometimes dealing with such things can be tricky?

When I tried dealing with this entity myself, I remember that I struggled very hard with it, I was trying to pull it forward and it gave much resistance so that every muscle in my body got tense and after some time I felt exhausted and had to have a break and then I try again later. In the next attempt at one point I felt that the entities resistance weakened and I asked the teams with my internal communication if I had got him forward and got a YES answer from them. So that was that . . . . finished and I was proud to been able to deal with it myself . . . . . or so I thought until about 2 weeks later when I had a phone session with Clive and he asked how I had dealt with the ‘run me over’ entity and after some explanations from me he told me that it was still active and hanging around. So it turned out that the entity must have hijacked my communication and gave me the ‘right’ answers for me to leave him alone.

Coping by not thinking about difficult life situations or weird incidents

WSW Comment (Clive); When you find yourself doing something ‘crazy’ or that you cannot explain except ‘as life’ then our coping and adapting strategies often automatically stop us thinking about these types of incidents. You brush them off, you make an effort to take more care when in similar circumstances, you put yourself on guard. I had the same thing happening except I had set up counter measures to make me VERY cautious around traffic. And of course the last thing you would think about is that something outside of the experience or even understanding of science say could ACTUALLY be making this happen? That’s really crazy isn’t it that some ’shit’ things could be responsible for making people walk out into the road under a car? Or perhaps the REALLY crazy thing is ALL the assumptions and beliefs that people hold to that actually prevent them from even considering this as a possibility. After all it’s probably much more comfortable to be run over by a car than it is to confront your assumptions? Or is IT?

Manifesting the TRUE spiritual life; a soul mate, abundance and more

• On the outer plane, I had manifested the perfect soul mate (we never had ANY conflicts about anything, what heaven!), plenty of money to do what I wanted, a lifestyle that was a dream come true (working as a very inspired artist but doing so only about half the year so I had plenty of free time for myself and for travelling), and for all that I could see, I had no problem any more in any area of my life . . . .
• Whenever any issues appeared, they didn’t seem to be my personal issues any more, but rather problems created by issues that others had with me (for example, my ex-husband was still angry with me, but I was very forgiving and even accepting of his attitude. I simply saw him as giving me the occasion to be the living compassion I felt I was.
• Of course, I was also loving myself deeply, was in radiant health and felt truly ageless.
• On the inner-plane, I was in bliss practically all the time.

All my life and until three years before, I had been struggling in almost every way conceivable. Then within a two months period, during which I had decided to make changes to my desperate financial situation, everything had suddenly changed. I had been in awe at the speed with which my life was turning around in every way. I kept telling myself “I thought it would take me ten years to get here”, but it had happened in two months! But I wasn’t about to complain: I was simply ecstatic about my own ecstasy!

Living in intense creative, ecstatic and sacred spaces

So here are some of the ways in which I felt the bliss I was living in:

• I would regularly go into a state of intense creativity and ecstasy, where for hours, I would have one amazing idea after another, all of which would feel incredibly right and appropriate. You could say it was a bit like smoking pot except that this was a completely “natural” high (I never even drank wine!), so I never “came down” the next day with any side effects. I would just be calmer until the next wave hit me. I loved those waves because they were so creative, felt so good and were so much fun! I would talk for hours to my partner and unveil all those ideas one by one…they seemed to be strung onto each other without any interruption: One idea would simply bring out a better one! And I just “knew” I would some day realise all those ideas. It was as if I was describing the future.
• Also our love-making was blissfully spiritual and spiritually blissful in many ways: I would get into all sorts of trances or have ‘higher consciousness” experiences. Sometimes I would spontaneously burst into sacred soundings right after orgasm, and these songs were really incredible, I really don’t know where they came from! At other time, I would even stop breathing for a couple of minutes and enter a state of “Emptiness” that felt extremely sacred, and which I had read about in many books about higher states of meditation.
• I had great recall of my dreams, but much better, I had an uncanny ability to interpret them in a way I felt was incredibly accurate. They fit in so perfectly with the going-ons of my daily life and brought me great insight.
• Amazing synchronicities were a part of my daily life.

My various experiences felt to me that the ultimate experience a human can have, as they were earthy enough but reached all the way to my soul at the same time. Surely, I was more and more fully connected to my soul and to Spirit. Surely I was more and more becoming an embodiment of Spirit.

So I felt and saw my life as being a total success, inwardly and outwardly.

Where is my Multidimensional Awareness?

Only one tiny little aspect was puzzling me: I wanted “more”… But I didn’t know what that “more” was since I had everything I wanted! So this did not make any sense to me. Why did I want more since I could not think of anything else I wanted, inwardly or outwardly?

I wrote:

“My journey is not over. I cannot stop here. I want more! But more of what? And who is this “I” who wants more?”

The only thing I could think of which I didn’t have was the ability to communicate directly with my guides to be multidimensionally aware of them. I had tried, I had read books, I had done exercises, even gotten the help of psychics who gave me private lessons, but to no avail. I was told over and over that I simply needed to trust, that I already was fully connected to my guides, and that it wasn’t an issue at all.

Readings confirm that I’ve almost achieved enlightenment?

When I had separate readings with two prominent channels whose work I highly respected, I was also told by my guides speaking through them that I had practically reached enlightenment, that the only step I had left was to actually acknowledge and accept that I was ‘there’ and to simply enjoy my blissful life. There were no more questions to ask myself, just to enjoy fully this bliss I was living, and choose anything else I wanted to manifest for myself. (My soul mate was told that he was already enlightened and he just needed to be conscious of it (he was the embodiment of bliss, peace and love wrapped in a cloak of humbleness which proved the genuineness of his being)).

Since I didn’t really know how to get to this last step, I was advised to do a 33 day intense meditation program, of which all the details were carefully given to me, and promised that everything would become clear at the end of that self-retreat. Though meditation was never my thing, I fully immersed myself in this program. I fully believed in it, I fully trusted what I had been told, and I was going to follow all instructions given. And I did, intensely and with total commitment, even completing the last 10 days in total silence, solitude and fasting. During those 33 days, I was inspired to record my own sacred sounds and to make many drawings of my soul’s journey, and both of those were better than anything I had ever done until then.

Leaving behind spiritual teachers, letting go of spirit guides

However the 33 days went by, and nothing more happened. Nothing except the realization that may be, I was relying too much on my guides and that they had promised me something that they did not deliver. I was angry at first, I felt like I had been fooled. But guides will not fool you, right, not out of malice anyway, so there must obviously be something they were teaching me here? So I figured that they had put me through this test so I would start owning myself fully, instead of relying on them. This was may be the last step to this enlightenment I was so close to . . . .

So I stopped having readings and plunged myself into new artwork, searching for even deeper ways to express myself and my truth . . . . I felt my work was to bring out into the visible all that was invisible, and thus make available to others what they might not be able to see themselves. I wanted to share my knowing with others even more than I had ever done it before. That was definitely my call.

It was in the midst of this intense search for the deeper expression of the inner-me into the outer world, that one day I stumbled onto the WSW website. Ironically, I stumbled onto it on the very day I was debating whether to get another reading from my favourite channel, torn that I was between the need to be reassured that I was on the right path and the desire to not rely on them any more.

When the first page of the website opened in front of my eyes, I sat in stupor . . . . and I remained there without moving from my chair for nearly three hours. I didn’t know whether it was because something inside me was about to crumble or whether it was because a new expanse was opening in front of me . . . . I don’t know exactly what I read that shook me to the core, but something did. I felt that may be all that I had accomplished and believed until now was about to be put on the line . . . .

To be honest, I had no desire to work with someone. I had walked my personal journey without teachers and I was in the process of even doing without readings, so I wasn’t keen on having a teacher at all! But I was still wondering why these other dimensions, which I intuitively, knew existed, remained inaccessible for me except during trance states or ecstatic creative times which did not come to me at will? If I was so close to enlightenment, surely I should be able to freely access those worlds, whenever I chose to, or at the very least when in a sacred space?

I wrote to Clive about my personal plight, (” I have resolved everything except that I cannot access multidimensionally” and in no more than 3 e-mails, I came to the knowing that he would be a challenge to me like I had never been put in front of, and that plunging into the depths he was just giving me an inkling about was what I needed to do. I was, yes, scared, but I had no choice. He knew things I didn’t know, that I was sure of, and I wanted to know what he knew. Apparently, he could do what I was yearning to do while watching TV or driving his car! Which totally dumbfounded me. So I jumped off the cliff, knowing that possibly I might have to leave everything I knew behind in the process.

But I was ready NOW. A year before, I had lost all my belongings, my work, my workplace and my house. Everything except my soul mate. I had gone through this very easily. So I knew I was ready to lose more, if I had to.

A Spiritual Therapy auto balancing Device Revealed

Immediately after starting to work with Clive, he announced that “something wasn’t quite right with my data”, that it seemed like my history was a disparate mix of pieces that seemed to fit together but which, when looked at closer, didn’t quite fit and didn’t make sense.

Then soon after, he told me the weirdest thing I had ever heard: That somewhere in time, in an attempt to resolve the many issues that plagued me, I had chosen to have installed in my soul a “therapy device”, an artificial implant which acted as a back seat driver to my being. This device guided and steered my being in a direction of everything blissful by creating circumstances which I liked and also by steering me away from anything that could trigger any negative or painful reaction while also filling me with bliss feelings. Thus the reason why I felt my life was so perfect: I was never any more in front of anything that stood any chance of bothering me, and always in front of what was pleasing me! I was being played like a puppet.

I just could not believe what Clive was saying, for if he was right, then my life was some kind of artificial reality and it surely felt completely real to me! And I didn’t want to be unhappy again! But Clive explained that since this device was keeping me away from me being confronted by my issues, I would not be able to resolve any of them in any real way until it was taken out. And that if I wanted “more”, I needed to go through this.

After a few weeks of anxious debate, I gave permission for this bliss device to be removed, and got ready to face myself as I really was . . . .

Who AM I without this ‘Soul Support System’?

The first thing that happened is that I suddenly found myself at the wheel of my body-vehicle but without knowing how to drive. Since the device was acting as a back seat driver, I, myself, had relied on it without being aware of it. And so, without it, I couldn’t do anything any more . . . . if I wrote a letter, what I said didn’t make any sense. And at dinner time, I would stare at the open refrigerator and would have not a single idea of what to cook, when creativity was usually flowing . . . . For a few weeks, I was deeply lost.

Then one day, the past issues I thought I no longer had started to present themselves . . . . I had thought I had resolved my sexual problems? My problems with men dominating me? Well, when a man suddenly appeared in my life who was very attracted to me sexually and also very domineering . . . .

I freaked out and realised that I had no real power, no real strength to hold my own in front of him and no ability to make him respect me. So came the startling realisation that what I had thought had been miraculously resolved a few years before when my life had changed so drastically, was still there, all of it. And that this bliss device had been covering it all up in quite a seamless way . . . .

Thus started a couple of years of being in a continuous process of being FULLY presented with issues BUT always with the means to resolve these. Some of my experiences of this are on other pages here. It was a roller-coaster ride through my wounded psyche, travelling back through my past and facing one by one all the issues that crippled me . . . . . and all the strategies I used to deal with them, many of which were of course bliss-oriented or about avoiding the negative.

Today: Natural Happiness, Genuine feelings and an Authentic life

• I no longer enter blissful periods.
• I no longer disappear into “Emptiness” when I make love.
• I no longer sing sacred sounds at the onset of orgasm.
• I no longer have obvious interpretations of my dreams.
• I no longer have ecstatic hours of wild creativity.
• I no longer have amazing synchronicities.
• My soul mate died a couple of years ago.

Sounds terrible, doesn’t it?

Well, let me tell you this: What I live today is 1000 times better than what I was living when I had all those things!

• My life is real now: I can be face to face with all my issues of the past (all the ones I have resolved so far, I am not quite done yet), and none of them bother me because I have truly resolve them. I don’t need to be steered away from what might trigger them, as the bliss device was doing: They just aren’t issues anymore.
• As a result of really resolving my issues which the device had covered up, I am 100 times stronger than before, more independent, more autonomous, more understanding of myself, of others and of the way the world works. I can also be soft and tender when the time calls for it, I have choice!
• My happiness is real: I am no longer PUT into bliss any more, and thank goodness for that! Instead of going into the real high energy I used to go into, and of which I had no control, I am feeling happy, in a grounded way, in a choice way, in a very self-assured way. And I can also deal with the painful moments in a wholesome way.
• My life is great: I still have money (actually more than before), I have a greater place to live than before, I have even more free time than before, and I do more things than I ever did, even during my blissy times.
• I met my real soul mate, who is a fantastic challenge for me to grow with. We love each other deeply, but we are not afraid of having conflicts and of using them to deepen our relationship. It’s a very real relationship. Not that the other one wasn’t, but it was almost too easy and not challenging enough?
• Instead of ecstatically dreaming about my future, it has actually arrived. I am living it more every day. In fact, I don’t even have to dream any more. My life is naturally happening.

No more artificial balancing keeping me in a spiritual illusion

Also, since the removal of the device, I have little by little been in touch with much deeper feelings which were buried so deep that I had absolutely no idea they were there: Not only have I been able to release lots of anger at being mistreated in the past, and this seemed normal enough, but I have also released huge amounts of wild rage and even desire for revenge. It really floored me to realize that I had those feelings inside of me when never once in my life I actually felt them before. They were so deeply buried that it took a couple of years of doing this work to get to them.

You could ask what is the use of working so hard to recover ugly feelings that are buried so deep that they never even surface?

The covers put over those feelings are the equivalent of wearing several heavy winter coats on a permanent basis. When those various covers are gone and the feelings underneath released, you have more energy to use for other things, you can move more freely and lightly and of course actually start to feel your own REAL feelings.

So the result of reclaiming, unblocking and releasing such feelings is one of greater empowerment and inner-strength, as well as more freedom and greater ease. And this in turn is definitely a factor in feeling and living a more natural happiness.

I am also constantly amazed at how I feel in my body: Not only is my health perfect, but at age 53, I feel like a 25 year-old. I don’t have any aches and pains like people my age, I haven’t put on weight with menopause or had any of the horrible symptoms all my older friends promised me, I feel vibrant and energetic. And the more buried feelings I release, the younger I seem to feel.

So I do know now the difference between an artificially created bliss which covered over a lot of pain, traumas and unresolved issues and a very real and natural happiness, unencumbered by layers of blanketing over feelings ‘forbidden’ to be had by a spiritual person.

My guess is that many people must have this artificial bliss I had (especially people in the “new age’ world, of which I was a very active member until I started working with WSW) but they don’t know it. It’s impossible to spot unless you’ve been through the removal yourself or you have incredible multidimensional abilities. But the difference between the two is only something you have to experience to really know what I am talking about.

So is anybody out there ready to take off their bliss device to find natural happiness?

Spiritual and channelled readers lying or merely totally unaware?

WSW Comment; How is it that two prominent channels give readings stating that ‘enlightenment’ is this ” close when this clients spiritual state is being maintained artificially? Does this mean that those passing this information are lying or that they are perhaps unaware of the widespread use of artificial means used to induce fantasy spiritual lives and states? Either that or they do know that this is how spiritual states are being achieved but don’t think that there is anything wrong with this? Which is even more worrying? If we are supposed to be trying to become whom we truly are then why are devices being used to achieve what is said by many to be out natural state? One suggests that there is a very good possibility that we have all been fed the highest grade spiritual pig swill for a very long time. For those whom consider themselves ‘woken’ up, then perhaps it’s time to ask what exactly you have I been woken up to other than some equivalent of a spiritual wet dream. Perhaps it’s time to properly wake up, start looking at the contradictions and see how flawed your basic assumptions, beliefs and understandings actually are. If YOU reading this have been FORCED into a so called balance and spiritual state by some energy technology and maintained in this day in day out then how much of YOU, your presentation, your feelings, your dreams, your thinking . . . . YOUR LIFE . . . . is actually authentically YOU? . . . . . How much? . . . . . Would that be 60% YOU that you are living? . . . . . or perhaps it’s more likely 10%. Which would make you 90% the puppet of some machine and 10% authentic . . . . . 10% would be a good estimate of the REALITY of these types of fantasy solutions.

Spiritual Contradictions & Healing Assumptions

WSW Perspectives; Some things for you to think about. Here is an assumption . . . . that the disappearance of the ’symptoms’ of ANY issue does not, DOES NOT actually mean that what was RESPONSIBLE for those symptoms arising in the first place have actually been dealt with AT ALL. That the disappearance of symptoms CANNOT be used as a measure of success. That if means are used repeatedly lifetime after lifetime to address symptoms in ways that DONT resolve the ORIGINAL causes then the end result is that those practitioners whom most use particular approaches will no longer be able to resolve certain issues that THEY THEMSELVES have but THEY WILL be able to disappear symptoms in a client.

Life triggers would take me daily into extreme and uncontrollable shame, remorse and embarrassment. These shame attacks paralysed my life and often prevented me from emotionally engaging and mentally interacting with others. I was a made into some thing that I am not, to be perceived in ways that are just not me.

Life paralysed by shame, remorse and embarrassment

I often have immobilising feelings of shame, remorse and embarrassment that would both rob my time and debilitate my ability to engage and appropriately respond to others. I would also be mentally absent and less coherent, creating a dazed feeling that would paralyse me and even cause my muscles to contract and spasm at times. Often I would be sore when this effect was particularly intense. I would often retreat into myself and lose touch with the world around me, I would sometimes not hear a person speaking to me. Sometimes the emotions would be so draining that I would also would get energy depleted and would have to lay down in the foetal position, not being able to straighten my body. Sometimes my legs would have a nervous twitch, I could not unfold my arms or I would find myself rocking back and forth. While in these attacks I would have memories return of episodes of shame from my childhood and teens.

Shame attacks regularly everyday for 40 years

These shame attacks occurred regularly maybe 4-5 times per week or more. Sometimes, it would happen 4-5 times in the same day, resulting in a very unproductive and difficult day. This happening made me very uncomfortable when dealing with new people, and I would feel extremely nervous and tense. I would be afraid I would embarrass myself. I could talk on the phone but not in person.

I can trace this pattern to my early childhood probably around age seven or eight. I remember another kid saying; “my Mama says your family is poor.” I didn’t know what the meaning of the word was. When I asked my Mother, she got angry, but never quite explained it to me. I figured it out and remember after that being ashamed of my family, house, etc. I can remember getting off the school bus and feeling like all the eyes of the children on the bus were burning a hole in my back. I thought they were looking and judging me. After this the episodes got worse through through my teens and as a young adult and were particularly intense when I became pregnant as a teenager. Most of the events that are strongly in my memory happened when I lived in my home town. I moved away at age 27 but the memories moved with me. They have continued to occur through adulthood. Later on in life I learnt I was quite admired as a child, but I never knew it.

Sabotaged self expression, social and work interactions

These shame attacks have caused people to misinterpret my intentions, as I am not able to express myself or be engaged in the topics at hand when I am in these attacks. I become forgetful and unaware of my surroundings. I have even been in situations where I would answer a question 2-3 minutes after the conversation was over (a delayed reaction) because I was stuck in the loop of shame and therefore not in tune with the people around me. People then think I am rude, weird, mean or that I am being standoffish or egotistical, which is not how I really am or how I feel. As a result I would often offend people and have them perceive me in an incorrect way in social and work settings.

Two months after the session where it was dealt with this it feels like nothing more than a vague memory. Although I know that being in this shame was a major factor in my life for decades now even thinking about what I was like makes me cringe. I simply cannot really identify with it as me any more. It was certainly not part of who I really am. So, I have gone from having shame attacks virtually every day and serious attacks 2-3 times a week down to vague uneasiness once a fortnight. It is really amazing how much it has really gone and how much difference it has made to my life.

Made to be in shame by subtle energy technology

This was dealt with during a session while working with Clive I slipped into a feeling of embarrassment/forgetfulness and felt myself stopped from being able to communicate my feelings. I could feel the shame program engage, it felt as if a blanket had just come down over me and a cap was put on top of my head influencing me and as a result I stopped being able to think logically. Clive recognised it and described what it was like and that its network was influencing my whole body including my arms and legs. It could control my body to correspondence to the type and depth of the shame and embarrassment feeling. This could be the extremities, the stomach area and my mind. So, for example sometimes I would be made to lower and hold my head in shame and hold it in my hands. Even though most of the time I can feel what is happening when things are being cleared, this time I was unaware of any feeling in my body that was corresponding to the clearing; I just knew something was happening.

WSW observations: This was a huge networked interference one of the largest and complex I have dealt with within a client and one obviously specifically tuned to Shirley. It was linked to thoughts, feelings and bodily responses to produce integrated effects including representing past memories to amplify and increase the shame and make the attack more potent and to move her body and limbs into positions that would correspond to what she was being made to feel shame about. When we initiated the removal of this set of energy devices we had to abandon the session in terms of working on other areas as it was obvious it would take a few hours of energy ’surgery’ to disconnect and remove the whole lot and still more time to bring her whole energy body into balance and alignment again. Having dealt with this, Shirley really cannot relate to how she was. She cannot identify with this shame or the reactions she had as part of her at all. In other words she was being made to be like this. Removal has resulted in feelings and reactions of shame dropping to a fraction of what they were.

Keywords: shame, remorse, embarrassment, debilitate, preoccupying feelings and thoughts, conditioned behaviour, manipulations, interferences, life distractions.

Ever been in a relationship that was ok but not brilliantly brilliant and then when it finishes you find yourself compelled to wait for this woman even though it seems insane to even contemplate doing this. How many of you have done this? Been held stuck, finding it so difficult to move on? Want to know what may be causing this?

Traumatic relationship split after wonderful weekend

This one is good, you will definitely like this one. So, after two and a half years in a relationship and quite a difficult one at that it finishes quite traumatically - at least it does for me. I have been opening up, resolving issues and deeply exploring myself while she has been hiding behind the sofa. This widening gap has past its ability to be bridged by about a year. So, you cannot fault my tenacity; although I am taking the maxim ‘never give up’ to masochistic if not naive extremes. So, we have been weaving along, somewhat bouncing off the walls and then one late spring weekend all the way from early Friday evening until late Sunday, the sun comes out, literally and figuratively and I am and “we?” are the most feeling, in tune, engaged almost ever. A most wonderful weekend only spoilt on Monday by her revelation that she has involved herself with some guy from work?

Entering a surreal none life?

While I am in the complicated process of trying to figure out what ‘involved’ in this instance really means, we split up, wednesday she moves out, to ‘I hear’ move in with him the following week. By this time I have entered a reality called “surrealsville”. I even imagine that I am a member of a film cast in a surreal film and at any moment I will hear “cut” shouted from behind a hidden clapper board indicating that normal reality will resume shortly. Reality of course rather than resume just continued - what a bastard EH!!.

This was horrible and horrible is in this instance just a polite way of saying that it was horrendously horrendous with a capital H. I was staggeringly crushed. So, it came as quite a revelation after on the one hand struggling with a relationship with probably unbridgeable differences to on the other being stabbed in the heart plus being told later some quite nasty, uncalled for and definitely unloving and further traumatising things TO FIND that I was completely INTENT on waiting for her to return and not being able to let go. STARK RAVING BONKERS.

Inner compulsion or obsession to wait for the ex-girlfriend to return

So, ’something’ in me was going to have me wait until hell froze over for this woman to return. I really could not for the life of me understand how my head could even vaguely consider this as a viable life enhancing strategy. I had to make a huge and conscious effort on a daily basis to not do what ’something’ seemingly in me wanted. Yes, the original situation was very disturbing but to be honest my head obsessively focused on trying to convince me to WAIT was equally unnerving. I cannot state this strongly enough. I could not rationalise any valid reason; logically, emotionally, intuitively or other to explain why waiting was a viable option. I made a huge effort to ignore this inner compulsion and move on but it was a huge effort.

This happened just the once, but once was quite enough thank you. Actually thinking about it now, I had a few girlfriends before this where although I was not with them for long I did feel the same at least once in terms of wanting to wait, but it was not anywhere near as strong probably because these relationships were not as involved or as long lasting.

Finding that I was being MADE to not let go to not move on

When releasing the last emotions from the original trauma that this situation represented (loss) it suddenly dawned on me that I should check for anything that would force me to deliberately wait and yes there they were. A bunch of them whose job was to keep me so lost in relationship and emotional shit that I would never surface. It took just a few minutes to clear them. Having followed another favourite maxim “You are responsible for all that you create in your life” for more years than I care to remember now, it came as quite a shock to find this to be absolutely and completely untrue. We live assuming that our thoughts and feelings are ours - that we originate them, we make them. I am finding this distressingly untrue for many of my own and my clients issues. There have been many things done to us to quite deliberately make us less than we are capable of being.

Keywords: relationships, breaking up, waiting, not letting go, emotional attachments, holding on, obsessive attachments, ex girlfriends, ex boyfriends

Have you ever experienced a time when people just don’t see you. That no matter what you do you are ignored, seemingly invisible your presence is not acknowledged almost like you don’t exist.

Repeatedly ignored, not acknowledged in interactions with people

While staying with a friend we both went off walking through their local village. It was a great day, the sun was out and it was actually quite hot. This was the first day like this after winter.

So, there were people out for walks passing through the village and at times they would start up a conversation with my friend. I would try and join in and this was the interesting thing, although this happened about three separate times and once even while sitting beside a couple at a table cafe, no matter what I said; no one acknowledged my presence.

I am not seen, people don’t speak to me, I don’t exist

It was absolutely amazing. I even walked around and stood directly in front of one couple to say something and still I was invisible. My friend was quite stunned, she could not believe what she was seeing either. Not one person even looked at me, not one directed a comment at me, not one replied to me when I spoke. I might as well have not existed.

You could say that these people were being impolite or ignorant.

In spiritual terms I would be common to be told that you either have to find what inside of you is RESPONSIBLE for causing this or in most cases you must ‘let it go’, to not allow it to effect you.

For many years I had been becoming progressively appalled at the ‘let it go’ approach; which is basically a sophisticated way to avoid looking for a cause, a way to adjust yourself until something does not bother you while you still have people ignoring or not acknowledging your presence?

Perhaps rather than say ‘let it go’ perhaps you should be saying ‘perhaps something is ACTUALLY causing these effects?’

Cause and effect in not applied to life challenges?

The cause? I found subtle energy based interferences acting to prevent people from engaging with me, listen to me or acknowledge me. Over the next few weeks I cleared lots of combinations of these. It turns out that there were rather a lot whose aim was to keep me isolated and secluded. I remembering this sort of thing as in being seemingly invisible and unseen happening in other phases of my life too.

As there are no concepts or understandings that ‘SOMETHING’ may be acting upon you to cause these types of situations then people don’t seriously think in these terms.

In fact it’s quite disturbing to think in these terms? Because where do you draw the line?

For you reading this now? How easy is it for you to even just consider the possibility that something hidden and unseen could be acting on you and be responsible for these or OTHER situations happening in your life. Sounds crazy, yes. I could not agree with you more. Sounds crazy.

On the other hand we have concepts such as cause and effect in common and accepted use if not RAMMED into our consciousness. No effect without a CAUSE. It seems that perhaps we are happy to think in cause and effect terms for just about everything EXCEPT for life situations.

Just because your brainwashed by science that subtle energy stuff is nonsense well it must be true? Mustn’t it? On the other hand my clients are steadily disappearing these types of ‘weird’ life issues by getting rid of subtle energy shit which bizarrely turns out to be what was CAUSING them. Getting rid of the subtle energy shit CAUSES strangely enough results in the EFFECTS these were having on my clients no longer happening.

Getting rid of them is perhaps rather a better strategy than of continuously backing into a smaller and smaller ‘let it go’ hole that has you adapting and adjusting in effect shutting down your responses while people STILL ignore, don’t acknowledge or treat you as invisible in particular situations or phases of your life?

Causes . . . . people not acknowledging you, ignoring you treating you as invisible, irrelevant, people not answering you  . . . .

Effect . . . . . that’s fine I’ll shut myself down, I’ll disassociate, desensitise myself to life until these things happening no longer bother me . . . .

Causes . . . . people not acknowledging you, ignoring you, treating you as invisible . . . . STILL HAPPENING . . . . .

Seems a bit of a stupid if not CRAZY!! strategy to me? Might just be the sort of strategy that people super glued to certain ideas or assumptions would use rather than REALLY look for some uncomfortable and maybe scary causes? What do you think?

For those of you suffering from these types ‘CAUSES’ I will sometime put up a site with resources (audio files for you to work with), that will strangely enough actually make you visible, seen and acknowledged. This is unlikely to happen before Mid 2009, but it will happen.

Keywords: not acknowledged, ignored, passed over, invisible, unseen

This example describes the release of anger and frustration that had built up over many existences of being subjected to sexual violations and suppression while not being able to express what I feel about what has been done to me.

Pain in sternum represents past emotional blocks

I have been releasing the emotions from past sexual traumas for over a year now. Six months ago I began to feel a pain in my sternum which represents many of the blocks I applied to cope with what I experienced. I can still feel the pain in the bone there, and every now and then, I am taken with coughing. But it’s now more of an irritated cough, rather than the gagging/throwing up that it was before. This is understandable as each time I have opened to these past stored emotions to let them go then the pain has been lessening and or changing as have the other symptoms that represent the sexual repression and trauma I have been resolving.

Dealing with and releasing suppressed anger and rage

Each release has been dealing with a different set of emotions and or types of violation. This example describes the release of anger and frustration that had built up over many existences of being subjected to sexual violations and suppression and of being unable to express what I feel about what has been done to me. My cough represents me not speaking or not expressing what I felt, it is a representation of closing my throat down.

So, this morning, when working with my laptop in a cafe, my battery suddenly goes dead on me, making me lose my writing. A loud explosive “shit, damn it!” comes out of my mouth before I have the time to stop it. I feel angry and people are looking up disapprovingly from their cup of coffee to see who is the woman who swears like that.

Coughing and screaming to release pent up unexpressed emotion

I really don’t care at all, but I can feel this shouting in public has shattered something inside of me, in my sternum. I go to my van to drive to visit a friend 20 minutes away. As soon as I am in the van, I feel this need to scream. So I do. Over and over. Wild blood-curdling screams, as loud as I can make them. Never mind if people in their cars can hear me. I feel that’s what wants to come out of my sternum, so I let it happen. I start coughing very loudly again, I’m trying to dislodge this stuck “stuff’ I have. Tears come out, but they are not sobs as usual, more tears of frustration . . . . .

Soon, I arrive at my friend’s house, but I know I am not done with this release. I stop the van in her driveway but I can’t get out of my van. I am taken with coughing and screaming again. I know my friend is going to come out of her house to greet me and find me like this . . . . she comes close, says hi and asks me if I am OK . . .

In the midst of my coughing, I manage to tell her I am having a WSW release (she has recently started doing WSW as well and has not yet experienced such release like this - maybe she needs to be aware of this as a possibility?). I open the door of my van to be with her but instead my body rolls onto the grass and keeps on coughing and screaming. I do that for about 5 minutes with her watching me and then I feel like I am done for the moment and I get up and we go inside her house.

I still don’t know if this sternum thing is done. My sternum gets really sore after such a release. like it’s been opened up from very deep. But what’s interesting is to notice that this release was different from the first one: No sexual images at all, but instead anger and frustration, at the idea of being confined, in prison, not free or be as I wish. It feels that this release was probably activated by the representation of being judged for swearing by the people at the cafe.

Some comments;

Symptoms of suppressed emotions or self expression

Pain in the sternum is often from heart based feelings being betrayed, let down or not being acknowledged. Coughing in the ways described above is often a representation of you forcing yourself to not speak or express yourself in the distant past. Coughing like this is almost a way of showing that something that needs to be spoken or expressed has been swallowed. Heart burn is usually of swallowing down heart based feelings and expression. Maya never used to get angry or enraged even though she was repeatedly not treated well be men. She actually enjoys getting angry now and in fact does not see being angry or enraged as negative; which it certainly isn’t not unless you have things making and keeping you chronically angry of course or other things making others react against you or hurting you for expressing yourself openly . . . . . they don’t help much either.

Keywords: a sexual trauma release, releasing anger and frustration, sexual submission release, sexual compliance issues

Having extreme and compulsive cravings for a variety of things; money, jobs, men, cars, clothes, spending, shopping and so on which were often triggered by being hurt and feeling sad or frustrated. These cravings were preoccupying me most of the time and taking my attention away from things that should have been getting a priority. They were also preventing me from giving proper attention to my friendships and relationships.

Compulsive desires and cravings for men, cars, cloths, shopping

I would have phases where I would have extreme cravings triggered by any situation in my life that made me sad or frustrated. Whenever someone hurt my feelings, I would get a craving for something to make me feel better.

These would rule my life so much that I would forget about everything else. They preoccupied me so much that they would not allow me to see beyond what I was currently compulsive about. This situation gave me no space in my life to have the time or awareness to see beyond what had my attention in that moment.

For example stopping to get cake after work everyday; sometimes two pieces if I was especially frustrated and if I had a few dollars. I would also be drawn to buy things at yard sales, thrift stores and expensive stores to often find later that I would not use what I had felt so compelled to buy. My house is full of different things I don’t need such as angels, furniture, candle holders, (I counted 15 different candles in the living area). I also have 4 closets of clothes some that I can’t wear but don’t want to give away.

Want things to make me feel good

These compulsions to want something to make me feel good could get so extreme that I could be looking to find a new boyfriend or call on an old one if the satisfaction I was getting from the cakes or buying things was not enough. I would absolutely have to have something to satisfy the craving even eventually turning to intoxicants or anything else that would suffice to make me feel better quickly.

These stronger cravings could happen up to 2 – 3 times in a week. Sometimes I could be craving something all the time for a whole week.

I first remember myself like this at around the age of nine. I would see the other kids with a new bike, new shoes, and I would stare because I did not have what they had. I think it was around the age of 10-12 that I started to really want and around 13 when the full compulsion set in. I would go from one craving to another and would have so much attention focused on what I wanted that I never got to really take notice of what I had myself that was good; like a new dress. I did not appreciate what I had. As a result I would envy others, spend all my money quickly, or when I was older give all I had to a relationship to try to make it into what I craved it to be.

Exploring and resolving craving issues

During the time that we started exploring these craving issues I gradually felt something restricting me around my solar plexus area but no matter what I did I could not get rid of it. During the next phone session with Clive focusing on these issues the solar plexus feeling heightened so I mentioned this. Clive then removed whatever it was wrapped around my solar plexus (I could feel it go) and all was quiet for the rest of the day at work until I started the drive home. During the drive the cravings were getting worse, so as soon as I arrived home I worked on clearing what was causing them. So, using the WSW techniques I targeted every type of craving I remembered experiencing; money, jobs, men, cars, clothes, shopping, food, cakes, etc, etc. The release of these was dramatic, if I had not been alone I am sure someone would have called emergency. I was contorted for at least 5 minutes with my back arched high in the air while I gasped for breath and shouted (I tried doing the same afterwards but it was impossible). Finally my solar plexus just gushed like a boil would when pricked by a pin.

The very next day after the clearing there were immediate changes; for the first time I could resist and say “I’m not doing that” and actually be able to.

Being self absorbed and preoccupied

I notice that I am not so self absorbed and I actually have the time to think other thoughts and look at things differently than in the past. I went through a series of epiphanies which allowed me to see that the craving feeling was a problem and it had been in my life in one form or another for a very long time. Funny I never saw it before. So it is now easier for me to see the overall functioning and patterns of my life.

Looking back 3 months after doing this session, I can say that my cravings have reduced a great deal, but that they are not gone entirely. I feel that I am a lot more in control or aware of the pitfalls I have had for them. I still go to sales although I have cut down on purchasing things I don’t need. I have more ’space’ to think and stop myself at times. I also actually for the first time gave away some clothes. I don’t crave attention and I don’t get a compulsion to be with a man as I did. This weekend in fact I enjoyed being by myself and cleaned my house for me rather than because I was having company.

Any additional comments? Basically there were lots of interferences hidden within her solar plexus area behind a very strong energy seal making Shirley crave various things. The more we explored these craving issues and the more determinedly we opened Shirley’s original soul energies to do this then the harder this seal was having to work to keep these hidden. A losing battle with WholeSoulWork as the more something resists the more obvious it becomes. Taking the seal away left all that was responsible for triggering and maintaining Shirley’s cravings exposed and vulnerable. It was also appropriate for Shirley to activate this release herself as this builds up trust in the process and confidence in her own abilities.
With the WholeSoulWork approach we often leave an issue area to settle to see how it changes; time is always a factor we have to work with. We are now starting to explore what other factors could be responsible whether interferences or perhaps conditional responses to clear what is left. It seems that what we dealt with here was responsible for compulsive cravings in a general sense. Now that this has gone we can take the opportunity to see which areas are better and which are not and work to identify and clear these deeper causes. This example will be updated as these areas are revealed and resolved too. A few months after this Shirley wrote; “It seems that perhaps the root of all of this is sadness and frustration as you mentioned. All that I wrote here doesn’t fit anymore - I don’t understand why it all seems so foreign to me, I know I wrote it but it doesn’t quite seem to be the case now that I am on the other side. I can’t seem to pinpoint why? It is almost like it is not the truth. Could it be because the compulsion was just a symptom?

Keywords: compulsions, interferences, cravings, shopping, buying, spending, sadness, frustration

Women were being made to be attracted to me and me to them but rather than this being like attracts like it was definitely unlike attracting unlike. I later found that this was something done to me by others with mall intent to try and get me involved and to keep me in disastrous relationships.

False relationship attractions to put me in relationship hell

I discovered what was causing this one day in a restaurant. When looking for a table to sit at I became aware that I was being internally directed to a certain table and actually a particular seat. It was very specific and I thought; OK, I will follow this and see what is going on. On the way to this table I noticed that I am being guided to sit where I will be placed directly in the line of sight of a woman sitting at another table about 3 meters away. Interesting! So once there, I sit down and settle myself. Over a few minutes I notice that this woman is giving me sideways glances, checking me out while at the same time I am becoming aware of an energy forming a bridge between us. This bridge seems to start from a position between us which then expands both ways to link the two of us. MMMmm I think? Something is setting up a connection between myself and this woman. I can feel myself being drawn to ‘engage’ with this woman - to make eye contact which I ignore (I will explain this later). The connection continues to build up and being empathic I can feel this woman being made to be drawn to me too by this energy. Anyway at a certain point I decide I have had enough of this game and focus to bring all that is causing this forward which turns out to be an entity and some technology it uses. It’s job; to attract decidedly unsuitable women to me, to get me involved in a relationship and generally try and make my life hell through this happening.

The chemistry of unlike attracting unlike

Thanks god (If one exists) for my empathic abilities. From the age of 15 I have been continually puzzled at the stream of girls / woman that would fall for me whom I would have no interest in having a relationship with (friends perhaps yes) as I am quite aware that their nature and or insecurities would in all probability drive me insane. This happened continuously from school, through university and then work.

I can remember at university working one afternoon in a laboratory practical with dozens of students all busy at their benches. Then suddenly I realise that the woman student working at the far end of my bench is falling for me. Strictly no eye contact - pretend that this person does not exist. Horrendous.

Relationship attractions that would bury me

Some of these woman were quite persistent and one when I started working tried everything she could to get me involved. I found out later that she had been ringing friends of mine (at 3 in the morning) telling them that she was going to commit suicide if I did not start a relationship with her. This was in fact exactly what I had felt was a very strong possibility - that I would be stuck in impossible and emotionally traumatising situations with them. I never succumbed to this attraction. Bit it was a constant puzzle why this should happen and a constant strain to avoid these attractions. They say that like attracts like - you must be joking!

Anyone else in this situation without an empathic ability to guide them would probably go with what reality is presenting them and almost certainly have a very hard time indeed as a result.

Feeling compelled to wait for the ex-partner after relationship finish

I have another example here which describes how when a relationship finished I would feel compelled to wait for my ex partner. While editing this example, I just realised that it was very strange why I spent so much time and effort in a relationship that was not really working; trying very hard beyond what was sensible to make it work. So, I started exploring and not unsurprisingly I found yet another batch of interferences whose job it was to support me to stay in these difficult relationships.

So, one set was designed to get me hooked up to unsuitable women, another set to make it very difficult for me to exit and in fact support me to keep trying and then a third collection that would be forcing me to wait for a mythical return. A perfect set up to make my life an emotionally whacked out disaster zone in relationship terms. For many years relationships whether I was in one, wanting one or being compelled to wait for the return of a finished one caused me a huge amount of emotional anguish. Not surprising really when you understand that something not of me was deliberately set up to cause this.

With every client so far with greater or lesser difficulties in their relationships was being caused either directly or indirectly by these types of manipulations.

Any additional comments? The entity and it’s ‘equipment’ responsible for this life long bizarre attraction battle took about 2 days to clear. I noticed this attraction pattern was present in all of my past and other lives during that clearing phase - merrily attracting woman all the time. This auto attraction was a phenomenon of many past and other lives because I dealt with an unbelievable number of entity attachments representing women whom were still waiting / hoping to start a relationship or ones that I had actually got involved with that I then broke from who were still waiting for me. I had hundreds of past attractions to break.

WSW relevant observations? This was something done with negative intent - to get me attracted to and stuck with relationships from hell. We are all told ALL THE TIME that we are responsible for our lives and what we attract. I worked for 23 years to that maxim; day in and day out to become progressively shocked to find that this is completely and utterly untrue. I would now say we are responsible for identifying what is causing our life challenges and resolving them but that we should not AUTOMATICALLY ASSUME that everything happening to us is caused by something we have done or our attitude. The sad fact is that 90% of clients issues are caused by something that they have no knowledge of, has been done without their permission and which has been done to them with the WORST possible intention. It would be a fair assumption to say that this % will apply to your own life too.

Keywords: relationships, attractions, unlike attractions, manipulated attractions, unsuitable attractions, emotional black hole

Although I had been trying to plan the layout out of the WSW documentation for quite a few months I just could not get a coherent picture about how to fit things together - I would just be able to do parts and my head felt quite ‘fuzzy’ while trying to do more than this. So, I explored to see if anything was causing these symptoms with the most bizarre but interesting results.

Difficulties or blocks planning or envisioning for the future

There turned out to be many different combinations of ‘interferences’ having often hidden but quite serious limiting effects on my eye sight. Here I write about finding one such ‘interference’ and the effects on my sight when I got rid of it. To start I have to set the scene. From where I work I can see out of my window a ladder against a wall on the top of the building opposite. It sat there untouched for many months - I was aware of it in fine detail because it was always in my line of sight from where I sit. It was during this time that I was planing the layout out of the WSW documentation but finding my head would not work to come up with a coherent structure. In effect I was trying to envision something, structure it and lay it out and use this as a template to work in the ‘NOW’ to manifest it over time. All well and good but for the fact that my thinking seemed to be quite confused in these areas.

True and truly bizarre REALITY distortions due to subtle energy blocks

So, one day while trying to identify any interferences that might in some way be responsible for my thinking being confused one largish energy device appeared in my awareness. Having identified something having an effect I worked on getting rid of this. The effect however was immediate, completely unexpected and bizarre. The ladder I looked at everyday and in fact everything at a distance through the window suddenly leapt closer - like I had some how flicked a switch to effect a X2 zoom function when looking through a camera lens. The closeness and the detail of the ladder literally doubled and I could see from the same position I had sat for 4 months things that I had been unable to make out before. The ladder and the building were twice the size they had been, yet of course my sitting position had not moved nor the buildings.

This interference had been making everything I was looking at seem twice as far away as it actually was. I kid you not. It was quite frightening to experience such a dramatic change to something considered constant and immutable both in terms of my sight and our reality As it took me a half day to stop feeling uneasy about this then I can appreciate how difficult it will be for you to accept what I write here. I’m updating this page over a year after first writing it and my long site STILL sees everything as twice as close. How is this possible?

Long term planning abilities improved

The effect on my long term planning abilities was noticeable too, they became noticeably better after this. Which is not surprising if my head was having everything pushed far away. To make it all seem vague and indistinct.

Any additional comments? When I actually explored the interference I was focused internally; sort of in a semi trance while I dealt with the ‘thing’, I got it cleared and a few seconds later I looked up and nearly jumped off the seat when confronted with the fact that building opposite had been moved about 10 meters closer across the street. Truly bizarre. I had been having to come to the conclusion that our reality is a representation and its representations are symbolic, this is another indication that this is true.

WSW relevant observations? This was yet another example showing that sight, eyes, vision are more than just about us looking at what is ‘out there’. That the eyes are symbolic of much more than what we can immediately see. In this instance vision obviously means more than sight but is also symbolically representing the ability to envision too.

Keywords: sabotage, long range planning, mapping out a vision, structuring information, limitations to vision, eye sight, vision

What is Spiritual and what is not? Here we look at how one well respected spiritual path limited and constrained a client of WSW in ways that some of you might find quite shocking. This is not meant to be a criticism of this path in particular as we suspect that most paths if held to for long enough will result in the same type of limitations.

For over 13 years I belonged to a Buddhist Organisation that originated in Japan. I was heavily involved for most of these years after being made a leader after two months. This made me extremely loyal to the organisation. The Japanese culture was infused into us; we were taught to smile as women, say thank you frequently and be very nice to everyone regardless. This being nice and helpful was to show everyone how the path kept everyone happy. So, often I saw positive behaviour in front of people when they were new or with someone we were to impress but then also the real relationships between members when no one was around. I became involved with this path after I started to research how other women were fulfilling their spirituality and in the process someone invited me to a gathering of this organisation. I was immediately attracted to the phrase “absolute happiness” and most people seemed happy and definitely more than I was at that time. So I started to practise this Buddhism and found I enjoyed the activities, was happier and was able to cope with life better. When I was “in the energy” (my words) of the path I found I had an incredible ability to see all things as positive and even see positive outcomes to my problems which helped the chronic worrier I was.

Limitations this Buddhist approach all problems are Karma?

Eventually however I found that the practise was not taking me into the unlimited possibilities I thought it would and the precepts of the path became unacceptable in terms of their explanations for me. Particularly in terms of the following areas:

• Limiting the range and expression of feelings: Being involved with this path made me feel that it was not right to express certain emotions; for example I did not feel comfortable expressing anger. So over time both my range of emotions and their depth became more limited.
• Solutions to life problems are limited: Even though there were precepts to explain how to change your karma, they were not easily put into practise. Many precepts were not able to reconcile to my satisfaction all aspects of the problems and situations we found ourselves in. If someone was ill, it was karma, financially challenged, it was karma; always all problems were labelled as karma. It did help to guide you to take responsibility for your own life and stop blaming others, which empowered up to a point, and often times after prayer you could see how the actions you took led you into certain situations. But, when I was honest with myself I was quite confused about this religious path just as I had been with Christianity. So this path only worked up to a point and was not “absolute happiness.” it was not truly resolving all my issues but often insulating me from them which is why I felt my problems continuously came back.
• Problems finding someone to have a relationship with: I also noticed that before I joined this path I did not have a problem finding dates or men that were interested in dating but after joining things changed. I had complained to Clive about it not being easy to find someone to have a relationship with, but did not relate it to the path I had been practising. I seemed to be invisible to men, although I was open to dating and interested in having a relationship and in a sense available I was rarely asked out and there did not seem to be anything obvious why this should be happening. I would always get the, why are you not married you are such a pretty woman.

After working with WSW for a while I then had a phase when I seemed to notice Buddhists everywhere. This prompted me to mention my past involvement in Japanese Buddhism to Clive who then realised that some of what was limiting me at this time was related to this path.

The ‘be part of a spiritual path’ forever syndrome

He had noticed that with other paths when initiations, rituals and vows had been taken that often these energies would still be with us on other levels even though we were no longer involved on the path in this life here. I was to find that this path was no exception. So, I explored and found that; yes I continued to have the guides originally assigned during the rituals still working with me. I talked to them and thanked them for their help but made it quite clear that their path was no longer a part of my life and I asked them to leave; I was quite forceful about this. However when I checked a few days later they were still with me. In fact there presence now seemed to be the cause of some heart and solar plexus pains.

Internally paths seem to forget their own values?

However nothing I did moved them until on Clive’s suggestion I reminded them that some of the precepts of this tradition is to not make judgements about others nor to disrespect what others choose. They were honouring neither of these with me and being very stubborn. So, when I forcefully pointed this out and demanded that they respect what I currently chose then they did eventually leave. I then had an emotional release relating to breaking these attachments. This release was because part of the guides training was to block the expression of certain emotions that this path deemed inappropriate. Over time these unexpressed emotions build up in your energy body and limit your emotional and behavioural responses they can even lead to physical challenges when the blocking is taken to an extreme. I wrote a mail to Clive; “I feel unbelievably better around my heart centre”. Immediately and almost unbelievably I had calls from people I had not heard from in years and was even asked out for dancing the same week and in total I was pursued for three dates - unheard of and perfect timing for my birthday. It was then obvious how much I had been stifled unknown to me by my involvement with this respected path. My feeling range has expanded giving me a greater ability to feel both better or worse depending on what happens. I also have lost the fear that something will happen to me if I stop this Buddhism and am quite comfortable letting them know I don’t practise and am not interested.

More awareness AFTER breaking from a path?

There was a lot of fear thoughts that would come into my head such as “What if this is the way?”. Since releasing myself from my attachments to this path my ability to see the world differently has expanded and I seem to be have more focus doing this. My awareness also seems to have moved beyond some invisible boundaries that had been there for a long time. Even after doing what I describe above I continued to feel that there was still some attachment to the lineage because these people still manage to gravitate to me; at this very moment for example there is a person who has been a member of the organisation for over 25 years sitting next to me. This made me realise that I still had my Buddhist altar in my house and felt this must be part of the original contract. So, two weeks after breaking with the guides I burned the altar and then experienced an unbelievably strong energy release that left me with a much lighter feeling. I realise the altar was acting as another depth of contract. I finally feel that with WSW that I can get to the bottom of my problems, I see a remarkable change in how I respond in life; and my frame of reference for living has shifted greatly.

Karma what karma?

I now have had enough experience of working directly with the real causes of my issues to know that karma is a small if not insignificant factor. I am both willing and able to allow myself to get really pissed off at what I find is the true cause preventing me from living to the fullest particularly when this is something that has been done to interfere with me. A month later I still have visits and calls unexpectedly from Buddhists friends, which strangely enough often coincided with me trying to write this document. But today I refuse to delay editing this experience any longer – I am tired of having my life interrupted without my consent. So I am putting the guides on notice again, STOP IT. I have also noticed that since I made this break my buddhist friends have been spending more time almost compulsively doing the prayers and chants; its like their guides are trying very hard to distract these others from the fact of me definitely leaving and being happier.

WSW relevant observations? What can we say. This example is a repeat with what I have found with almost every client. Most paths no matter what is said publicly have an almost unbelievable tenacity internally. Often they will go against their own tenets of belief to hold someone to their way, which if you just write this differently would read “stop people from leaving”. The attitudes are all the same; you have strayed, you gave us permission to hold and guide you along our path and so, even though you may actively be wanting to move on these internal magnets will keep you bound to many and varied unconscious or implied agreements or worse. Like attracts like, so part of what a follower gets when joining this particular tradition as a soul are internal programs and energy focuses (like spells) that; for example; support and in fact directly guide you and although you wont believe it to in some cases amplify an attraction so you pick someone for a relationship from the same path while at the same time push others not of this path away and certainly push people whose beliefs do not match with those that are ‘acceptable’. These from this tradition were a strong but not exclusive factor keeping men away from Shirley. The inner energies of most paths (particularly those considered good) will try and keep you on the ‘right’ path, following the ‘true’ way rather than supporting you to do what you choose. This is sad but true. Those paths that many consider spiritually impeccable and above reproach are often the worst.

The never ending disrespect and violation of freewill . . . .

As a postscript to this example. After what is described above and breaking from these guides over the next year and a half more Buddhist guides turn up relating to other issues with this path. We break with these other sets 2-3 times. We think this might just be the end of this association but no it gets even worse;

The Buddhists keep turning up to a point where deeper investigations reveal that this client has a vow to be bond to this path FOR ALL TIME. In other words she has a vow to be stuck being a Japanese Buddhist lifetime after lifetime until this universe freezes over. THAT IS TRUE SPIRITUAL! MADNESS?

Their leader was affronted by our petitions to have her released from this vow. He absolutely refused to do this and so it took quite some persuasion and strong negotiations with the spiritual hierarchy and so on and SHOUTED reminders of freewill and the details of the constitution that governs us all of which this type of vow is an obscene violation.

In my terms this is entirely ANTI-SPIRITUAL, it shows fear of losing followers, and that the leaders of paths don’t accept the fantasy that all paths are equal (as we are told here).

While breaking this vow we found that another 500 paths are all doing the same thing; binding people forever to their path. So, this ’spiritual’ practise is NOT rare but relatively common.

So, what vow may you have made that has you NOW bound to something without ANY choice for ever without ANY means of exit.

While writing this I was attacked by guides from this path (yet again) because one of my other clients has entered the energies of his Buddhist past lives and strangely enough is being MADE by these beings to feel shit, is being MADE by them to feel as if he might have a heart attack (I am not kidding) as well as to be MADE to question his work with me. Fortunately as he has already experienced being put into severe suffering about half a dozen times before this by so called ‘wonderful’ guides from other paths to force through PUNISHMENT to have him remain with them then he like me is getting quite pissed off with so called spiritual and ‘light’ affairs and beings turning out to NOT BE SPIRITUAL in the slightest.

Paths are in competition with each other. Their attitudes are; if only every one was a ‘Buddhist or ‘whatever’ enter the name of ANY path here’ then everything would be wonderful and we would ALL get on. That is the REALITY of the agenda of many so called spiritual paths.

Keywords: limitations, spiritual paths, japanese buddhism, paradigm carry over, karma, hidden agendas