How living in Spiritual Bliss and Divine Ecstasy and having everything going for myself wasnt quite enough and how exploring beyond what I had led to the VERY shocking understanding that my acknowledged spiritual life and state was being achieved by artificial means; by some subtle energy technology. That I was not in fact living something real or authentic.

Being subconsciously stopped from having a relationship because of internal ties and actions taken by the spirit guides and the vows I took as part of a Japanese Buddhist spiritual path.

The higher self as a debilitating add on; limiting choice and personal freedom; being unable to say no to be forced to serve others, never get angry or upset or to stand for yourself

Continuous sabotages, distractions and blocks as I am trying to realise a life long ambition to help others as a life coach and by making transformational jewellery. How I would be distracted, have no attention and be blocked from studying.