How living in Spiritual Bliss and Divine Ecstasy and having everything going for myself wasnt quite enough and how exploring beyond what I had led to the VERY shocking understanding that my acknowledged spiritual life and state was being achieved by artificial means; by some subtle energy technology. That I was not in fact living something real or authentic.

Having your emotions manipulated to keep you in extreme negative feeling and thinking states; fear, insecurity, anxiety, depression, preoccupations, worry as a means to debilitate and stop you functioning in life.

Continuous sabotages, distractions and blocks as I am trying to realise a life long ambition to help others as a life coach and by making transformational jewellery. How I would be distracted, have no attention and be blocked from studying.